I found a wee saying last week that I loved.
Never give up on someone who you can't go a day without thinking of!
I know its one of those silly saying/quotes but it made me realise that-
If the person is worth it you need to let them know even if its a silly text, a phone call, a letter or just a chat in the street. Those that mean something to you should never be given up on!
I've been thinking today about a lovely man called Eddie Liddel! Or as I called him Mr Liddel.
He was my first rugby and shot putt coach aged 12.
When it came to sport he was a very hard but fair man. However outside that he was such an awesome guy. He was the first adult to show me real empathy and concern after my mum died.
As a teenager I developed early, growing facial hair by the time I started playing rugby it become an issue with the school. They told me continually I needed to shave. My foster parents refused to buy me shaving kit though. What could I do? Keep taking the grief at school was the answer. Even playing sport they refused to buy sport kit. They would say we don't get money for that if you want to play you'll need to pay for it yourself.
My rugby kit came from friends I could borrow from and at times I played with boots that were to small that have now deformed my feet.
However Eddie Liddel from his own pocket got me a shaving kit and would try his best to get me rugby kit as well!!!
This man was such a positive influence on me thinking about all this does make me cry but the smile I have from knowing here was a man who I meant nothing to but who spent his own money to help me and gave me, for the first time the feeling I was not worthless. He taught me I was no different from the others no matter what I was told elsewhere!!!!
So Eddie Liddel wherever you are bless you and know you will always be in my thoughts!!!! Your an amazing man!!!
Anyone who has looked at my other blog "what winds me up" will know I have issues with my past and probably moan to much about life.
I was chanting in the car today and this idea popped into my head.
When we are concerned with the past. We create family trees, we moan about how hard our past was and we often don't consider anything positive from our past. So my idea is -
To make a sort of family tree but not about family, about those people in my past who have had a positive effect on ME.
The idea came as I was being miserable and thinking about losing someone so special to me and turning what had been a truly wonderful relationship into such a bad thing when it wasn't!!!
It was positive and changed me so much. For the better stopping me doing some things that were really negative and were not helping me or anyone else.
That relationship had turned so much negativity into a positive thing. Stopped me treating others really badly and started the repair of my mind that had been needed for so many years.
So now I am not going to focus on missing my best friend. I'm going to concentrate on the many many positive they did for me!!! Turning the negative of losing that real friend into a kind of positive thing.
I just hope that at some point they will be able to do a similar thing!!!!!
Have you ever wished you could become a hermit?
I have! The thought of living way up in the mountains soaked in nature, watching the wildlife, living in a cave or better still a hobbit hole. Well that would be my ideal place to end my life.
Not that I'm suicidal or anything!!!
I'd love to spend what's left of my life in the Scottish highlands!
Only thing I'd need is that special person who would want to share that with me!
Thinking of this special way to spend the last years of my life always makes me smile :-D
How can anyone not be smiling after walking through this awesome place?
St ninians wood.
As you can see from the picnic bench its a little over grown. Was so chilling though and Katie loved it
Up early for me today. Going to take my Katie dog for a lovely walk before it gets to hot us both. Always makes me smile
